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[ chews his cookie..... ]

A giant rat also kidnapped me.

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[ Hak may be an even worse of a storyteller than Thorns. That's impressive. ]

Huh. And you just let it.

[ why is he victim blaming ]

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[ HELLO ]

I didn't let it on purpose. [ sometimes you roll the dice (of life) and it fucks you over. ] I didn't ask to be stabbed either.

[ even if it was better that way..... ]

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[ hi… ]

Yeah? And what was the sequence of events that lead to both?

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I'm surprised Thorns didn't tell you already.

[ assigns them yaoi ]

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He's notoriously bad at giving any sort of retelling. That's why I was hoping to hear more from you.

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[ thinks about the four people on this cyoa and tears up ]

Which part didn't you hear?

[ like ely would know that?? ]

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[ yosuke really carried for all the people curious about elysium's… wipes tear. ]

All I know is that there was a brothel involved.

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Yeah. Thorns slept with a lot of people.

[ just says that. pauses. thinks about it. ]

I think I did too.

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… A brothel would do that, yeah. And this sleeping around lead into giant rats and stabbing?

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No, that was the human trafficking ring we led. The rat was mad about it.

[ rightfully so. ]

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[ WHY DOES HE ALSO HAVE TO LEAD YOU TO GET ANY KIND OF PROPER STORYTELLING ]

And this all happened before or after you guys got murdered…?

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Before. [ no, wait, ] After.

[ ..... ]

We woke up dead already. Then some of us died again.

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So… you all died. Multiple times. But you still managed to get your revenge in the end, right? Everything worked out?

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Thorns didn't die. At the end.

[ he has to point that out. thanks for carrying, mr. sexy person. ]

I don't think we all wanted revenge though. [ well. he rethinks his answer. ] Medea probably did. I just wanted to find out what happened. Or the other me did, I guess.

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For our expedition, the only thing we had to worry about was going up a mountain and everyone around us dying along the way.

[ the more he asks the more confused he is. cool. ]

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[ thinks about their baguettes and bursts into tears ]

That sounds worse than what happened to us.

[ does it?? ]

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[ me after seeing exp33 sweep the game awards: i should really watch this now huh ]

How so?

… Maybe it's because enough time has passed that it doesn't feel as visceral anymore. It's only been a short amount if you look at the larger picture, but so much has happened between then and now. It helps that none of us blame each other for what happened, at the end of the day.

I imagine it's harder for… you guys to have that kind of conversation.

[ gazes at this grouping ]

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[ YOU SHOULD......you should....

also (mod voice) this group's reticent ]

None of us blame anyone for what happened except Yuma. He just blames himself.

[ and hak, being an uncultured 18 year old, has no idea how to change that. ]

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That guy might somehow be the most stubborn one here. That's saying something.

Despite being there with him, you haven't been able to break through at all?

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[ a shake of his head. there's some irritation on his face, but it isn't directed at yuma. ]

Every time I say something he brushes me off. But Thorns seemed to get through to him a little bit.

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… Huh. Here's to hoping they can help each other out.

[ peers over


and just stares directly at Hak. ]

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[ with a cookie in his mouth: ]

What?

[ except it comes out sounding more like whuh because of the aforementioned cookie ]

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Nothing. It's just hard to believe someone when they say they don't blame themselves. Especially if they've only recently come back from a harrowing experience.

[ staring intensifies ]

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[






pokes elysium in the forehead ]

I blame myself for a lot of things but stupid memories that aren't even my own isn't one of them.

[ maybe if things had turned out differently he might have, but the worst never came to pass. ]