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[selfconcept]

[ Because he was a bad boy............... ]

"Maybe it's best not to know what you forgot... Go check with Soowon if you really want to know though. What did you even die to..."

[handfast]

I did. He said he'd help as much as he could.

[ but they were separated for a long time and there's a lot they don't know about each other anymore. though that's less bothersome than hien's question, which makes hak frown. ]

Do you really want to know?

[selfconcept]

"Yeah, but if you don't want to tell me, then you won't have to."

[ He won't get offended. ]

[handfast]

[ does he want to talk about it? it still feels like a tangled mess in his chest. but hien's always been easy to talk to, comfortable to be around. it seems easier to talk about what happened here and now. ]

Soo-won stabbed me. Or—some version of him did.

[selfconcept]

[ He blinks despite not being able to see, but. Huh. ]

"When you... went on your expedition?"

[handfast]

Yeah. He was there. You were too. [ ... ] You ate some dice.

[selfconcept]

[ .... ]

"Did I die again in there..."

[ He sounds so. Weirded out about this. ]

[handfast]

[ hold up ]

Again? Did you die in one of the others ones too?

[selfconcept]

"Apparently? I was probably torn to bits in the one Yosuke went to. Then there was the one with Makoto where he saw my corpse. And now you...?"

[ did he die from eating dice that would have been so funny ]

[handfast]

[ hien.....why do the spirited away gods hate you so much? but hak will shake his head. ]

Pretty sure you didn't die. If you did, I didn't see it. [ .... ] Though you were friends with that creep.

[selfconcept]

[ That's what he's been trying to figure out all this time... ]

"What creep?"

[ Tell him of your experiences, Hak... ]

[handfast]

Droopy Eyes. [ wait. no one here knows who that is. ] Jae-ha. That guy I told you about before.

[ now hien can know about his one true (cursed) love.... ]

[selfconcept]

[ Imagine if I said he was still cursed about jaeha

Thankfully he is not. Hien does look slightly amused though. ]

"That guy again? Oh... was I like his concubine or something."

[ He makes a Face but also lmao ]

[handfast]

[ HELLLLLLP it's hak's turn to make a Face about that. ]

Gross. I hope not. Even if he'd probably like that. [ ugh!!!! ] You guys were just friends. And my friends too. We all gambled together.

[ his isekai backstory... ]

[selfconcept]

"Sounds pretty normal... and I don't die this time."

[ nice. But also suspicious. ]

"Then what got you all roughed up?"

[handfast]

[ how much does he want to say....... ]

Some guy Yuma knows. [ sure. that's safe enough. ] His commander? He made us play a messed up game of chess.

[selfconcept]

[ Oh. Hien pauses for a bit about Yuma's commander, but then he makes a Worse Face. ]

"What the fuck is it with strategists and being obsessed with chess and making everything thematic about it??"

[ He fuckin hates chess... he's the kind of guy who would flip the board over and leave. And eat the pieces too ig ]

[handfast]

[ hien you should have been there to eat the pieces. actually, wait, that probably would have also been bad. ]

Beats me. But the pieces were people we knew and whenever one got knocked off the board they—

[ well. he probably doesn't have to say it to make it clear what happened. ]

[selfconcept]

[ Hien just thinks THIS is the one he didn't die in?? Pieces? It might as well be Piece Wars at this point and that just makes him sigh so bad. ]

"Everything about that is terrible."

[handfast]

You're telling me. [ a frustrated groan. ] Can't one of these be nice for once?

[ no ]

[selfconcept]

"From my experiences, these are never nice."

[ Experiences? Yeah, he was in the middle of a cyoa before coming to purgatory, actually. He hates these expeditions yall go on so bad because they sound so much like the ones he's been on. ]

[handfast]

[ hien....you suffer so much.... ]

Someone out there should make a nice one instead of being sick and twisted.

[selfconcept]

"... Maybe I would, but I don't have the power to do that. Even then... I don't want it to be like one of those happy illusion things that people will want to live in forever. We have enough conflicts about those."

[handfast]

It could just be a normal day.

[ but he sighs, leaning back. ideally they wouldn't be kidnapped and taken anywhere but the odds of that are low. ]

There's nothing else but to keep finding a way out of this place.

[selfconcept]

"Don't work too hard. I feel like the answer will show itself eventually... hopefully when you're not an old man by then."

[ ... ]

"What is your idea of a normal day?"