[ tears in my fucking eyes that's a great question
puts him in the clowndromat because he doesn't think anyone else will go in there and also there's something weirdly soothing about staring into a spinning wash cycle for the sixth time. ]
[ is it a comfortable silence..... no one needs thoughtshare or emotionshare or any other share to know that hak looks and feels deeply miserable. but he will glance over tiredly at edamura. ]
[oof. those words sure do hit home in a way that Edmaura is still coming to terms with. he doesn't know how to not care either, does he? that's why he's here in the first place. stuck in Purgatory, chasing after an asshole]
[nevertheless. . . he tries to be encouraging]
That's not a bad thing. It just means you've got a big heart.
[ edamura you are so cute and you deserve better than to be saddled with an overemotional teenager. the encouragement does get a small laugh out of hak, but it's bitter and empty. ]
Not compared some people. Most people, actually. [ he's always been unforgiving and slow to trust. ] I don't like most people. Whenever someone hurts the people I love, I think about hurting them back. That doesn't sound like a very big heart to me.
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[where is hak]
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puts him in the clowndromat because he doesn't think anyone else will go in there and also there's something weirdly soothing about staring into a spinning wash cycle for the sixth time. ]
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[anyway, once he finds Hak, he takes a seat right next to him. . . and says nothing. they can sit in comfortable silence, right?]
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Shouldn't you be checking in on everyone else?
[ he wasn't the one who died (this time) ]
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You're included in "everyone else."
[doesn't matter that he didn't die. someone close (?) to him did, and Edamura knows just how much that can fuck someone up]
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outwardly hak just sighs. ]
He forgot about me.
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No--
[he immediately looks horrified on Hak's behalf]
They can't. . . the river can't-- after all of that?! It can't be that cruel!
[and yet!]
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It made me forget the princess. [ his most important person. ] I should have seen this coming.
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It just. . . feels like kicking you while you're down. [. . .] Despite everything, you still. . . care about him. Don't you?
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....I don't know how not to.
[ even though he wanted not to. even though he tried. and now, knowing what he knows? there's no way he could. ]
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[nevertheless. . . he tries to be encouraging]
That's not a bad thing. It just means you've got a big heart.
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Not compared some people. Most people, actually. [ he's always been unforgiving and slow to trust. ] I don't like most people. Whenever someone hurts the people I love, I think about hurting them back. That doesn't sound like a very big heart to me.
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Having a big heart doesn't mean you care about everyone. It just means. . .
[hm. how should he put it. . .? he smiles a little bit as he thinks of his mother, drawing upon her life lessons for what he says next]
. . . that you have the capacity to forgive.
[he's being encouraging about this with Hak, but don't ask him about his own journey to forgiveness. it's rough going]